and again

the volcano was quiet yesterday but erupted twice again today. and again, i didn't know it had happened until i read about it.

THIS site shows before and after pictures of part of the slope... it's so different.

and HERE you can see pictures of the eruptions and the aftermath.

the photographer in me is aching to get over there. i feel like i'm missing out on the opportunity of a lifetime, photos-wise. but i teach all day, and it's been raining in the afternoons. also, it's not exactly safe to be over on that side.

the adventurer in me wants SO BADLY to see an eruption. that would be the coolest thing...

the heart of compassion in me is aching to get over there as well. my neighbors are dying. literally. and there's nothing i can do about it. i have a job. i have to be here. and even if i didn't, i'm not equipped with the right tools to be able to enter a volcanic disaster zone and make any kind of difference.

so what do i do now? eat opor ayam and rice.... read a good book (in english!) in my pajamas in my cozy new chair.... and keep on praying. because i don't know what else to do right now.