knee update

it's been an hour now since my tragic knee incident.
after the initial pain wore off and tears stopped coming to my eyes, i was limping for about 5 minutes.
then my knee area went numb.
given the magnitude of the wound, i assumed that being numb was infinitely better than being able to feel it.
until i tried to go up a step and my leg didn't lift high enough and i almost died in front of the whole school.
now, an hour later, feeling is slowly returning.
when i sit, i feel like i have a pinched nerve in my knee.
when i walk, i feel like someone is kicking my kneecap every time i take a step.

i leave all my possessions to my mom.
except my laptop.
zach can have that for college.
and give my clothes to the bawen orphanage.

just in case.